Siblings with Benefits Ch. 36

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Dark Days; Megan finally pushes her brother over the edge.
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Part 36 of the 45 part series

Updated 10/19/2022
Created 05/27/2010
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Authors note: some quick hits. This chapter marks my 50th story on Literotica. I couldn't have timed it better as this one ends with a bang. Also a huge thank you to author Sydney Blake (How to save a life. The hottest romance series on lit!Check it out for yourselves)for doing a lights out job editing this chapter.As for my dedication: This reader has always stayed anonymous, but has commented many times and e-mailed me as well. He is by far my biggest Megan hater so on that note, this chapter is for "sparekeys". As for this chapter itself. SWB is a pretty grim story, and honestly not nearly as popular as some of the stroke series that are currently running right now. I am fine with that. From day one this has been my story written my way. Now that I am getting near the end, not only am I going to continue that, but am going to rev it up. The remaining chapters will not be heavy on erotica, but will be heavy in general. If you are a sensitive sort, brace yourself. For the next three chapters, ladies and gentlemen, the gloves are off. As always thank you for reading! Lovecraft68

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I sat in the back of the cab with my head down, using my long black hair to cover most of my face and the fact that I was crying. I'd managed to hold it back during the ten minute walk from Mark's office to the Biltmore. I needed a taxi and they were always circling the hotel, and this way I didn't have to wait in front of his building for one. It hadn't been easy holding it together, but I was getting enough looks as it was in my current ensemble. Had I started crying, people would have thought I was some distraught, strung out prostitute. Not that I hadn't had some experience with that particular situation back in the day, but I would never want it thought of me again.

Within a minute of reaching the hotel, I flagged down the cab. I noticed the driver passed an older couple and a guy in a suit so he could pick me up. I got in and gave him my mother's address. The driver, a big greasy looking guy in his fifties, took one look at me and asked, "How you gonna pay for this?"

I rolled my eyes. Under different circumstances, I would have told him to go fuck himself and gotten out. Right now, however, all I cared about was getting back to my parents' house so I could hide in my old bedroom and cry. I reached into my purse and pulled out a hundred dollar bill and showed it to him.

He smirked, "Business must be good."

I smirked back, "It always will be because there are always fat, ugly men who can only get laid if they pay for it."He gave me a dirty look, but put the cab in gear and quickly pulled into traffic. I caught a glimpse of myself in the rearview mirror and winced. So much for trying to not look like a mess; I had already been crying at Mark's office, and my allegedly waterproof mascara had run in black streaks down my face. My good old manic panic Goth foundation had held up, however, so I now looked like a sick, sad clown straight out of a Marilyn Manson video.

Sliding over to the right corner of the seat, I let my head drop, my hair fall over my face, and my tears flow. I was devastated and confused. What had just hit me the last two hours? My father, the pictures, Mark's lies to save me. As if that wasn't enough to take in, Mark put me on the spot. I did love him. I knew that now. Not that I should have needed my brother's sacrifice to make me realize that. Those feelings had been there for years I had just pushed them aside, telling myself I would ruin my brother, and pretending the feelings weren't there. This time around, Mark took all my excuses away from me. He pointed out that I was sober, successful, and, most of all, he told me how he felt. My mind was still reeling. How, exactly, did my brother think we could pull this off?

I told him I loved him, sort of, by simply saying yes. Had I just kept my big mouth shut, we might have been able to sit down and talk things through, like we had planned. Instead, I put a fatal "but" in there, and my exhausted, emotionally spent brother did what he always did when he was hurt, he lost it

I did my best not to react to his rage. My brother had been through a lot in the last year, and I had not been there for him. As much as the Winthrop trial had helped his career, it had taken everything else from him. Mark had tears in his eyes as he numbly told me how my father told him no one ever wanted him. I now knew why he was avoiding Mom, and it was wrong; she loved Mark dearly. Unfortunately, I knew too well that feeling of being unwanted, of knowing that no matter how good life was now, that we had been given away, as if we were unwanted pets. For my brother, who had already been dealing with the heartache of missing his chance to be with me back then, hearing those things from Dad caused him to believe them.

I was also struck with guilt, hearing how badly he missed me, and how he so desperately wanted to be with me. I've never regretted moving to Chicago. I would not have achieved as much surrounded by nothing but painful memories. But in leaving all that pain, I left behind the best part of my life. Mark, who, of course, told me to go ahead and do what was best for me. Had I not been the selfish bitch he had rightly accused me of being, it would have occurred to me that sometimes, Mark said things because he felt it was what I wanted to hear, not because it was how he really felt.

So as Mark got more and more wound up, I just sat there and listened, trying to wait for an opening. That is, until he started really going off the deep end and talking about us fucking others and ending it by throwing my words from twenty years ago in my face: "We're not for all the time."

I wanted to tell him that I was in love with him, but he got me rattled. All I could think of was my journal entry when I had 'given' him to Cynthia so he wouldn't know how I felt. I said the word 'was' and Mark turned lawyer on me, treating me like a witness he had just crossed up. If Mark had been rational he would have heard the emotion in my voice and realized that I was still in love with him, but he was too far gone. When I tried to tell him he had told me to fuck myself. I was stunned; short of a couple of times when I had been wasted Mark had never spoken in that tone to me.

Before I could get anything out Mark had simply looked me in the eye and told me to leave. I had felt my own anger rising, but seeing the raw pain in my brother's eyes stopped me from making things even worse. I tried to tell myself he didn't mean it, that he would calm down and we could talk. I told myself that when we did I would simply tell him how much I loved him, take him in my arms and let him feel how much I did. We would still need to figure some things out but I needed him to at least know he was loved.

Sadly, I never got the chance. He stared out his office window while I sat there crying softly, hoping he would calm down and come back and hold me. No, that was the kind of thought, that made Mark seem right. When he came to me, I would hold him. After several minutes however, without turning around to look at me, Mark asked, "Why are you still here?"He spoke softly, but there was something in his tone that told me it was over. There would be no apologies, no making this right.

Standing up, I let out a sob, and as I did, Mark shook his head disgustedly. On that note, I turned to leave, when it occurred to me that I was going to take his car. Normally, Mark always took me back to the airport, but obviously this time would be different. Taking his keys from my purse, I tossed them on his desk so that he would hear them. When he still didn't turn around, I felt my temper flare at being dismissed like a child, but I was smart enough to simply turn and storm out of his office.

Now sitting here in the cab it hit me that this had been my own fault, Mark had warned me that something's were better left unsaid, but I had pushed. I took a deep breath and seeing that we were already at the exit for my parent's house I tried to pull myself together. I had no doubt Mom and Dad were both home, and I had no idea how I was going to get past them to go upstairs to my room.

As we pulled up to the house I saw that as I had feared both cars were there. I paid the fare, then stood on the sidewalk for a minute staring at the house. If I went through the front, I might run into Dad. I had no idea how I could look him in the eye right now, knowing what he had seen. Not only that, but knowing that, in his mind, it was over, while in reality, I had just fucked my brother in his office not two hours ago.

This made my heart sink; Mark seemed to think no one would ever find out about us. I disagreed, but even if he was right, and we could pull it off, I would need to tell my parents. I could not lie to them for the rest of my life. Mark, by his own admission, had made this even more difficult by lying to my father. The cat had been out of the bag last year. Had I been around, I would have come clean and admitted that we had been and still were lovers. I would have taken whatever repercussions there were. Who knows? Maybe that would have brought Mark and me close back then. No. I was with Laura, and believed I was in love.

With a sigh I walked along the side of the house. I would take my chances with my mother. I reached the back, and taking a deep breath entered through the back door. Feeling like I was back in my teenage years and sneaking in after curfew, I stood in the small hallway listening at the door that led into the kitchen. I didn't hear Mom's small TV going and, opening the door entered the kitchen. To my relief it was empty. Once again, just as when I was teenager, I slipped my heels off and quickly made my way towards the stairs that led upstairs. I didn't have a car and my parents would never know I was there. I had made it half way to the door when Mom's voice stopped me cold.

"Megan?"

I didn't answer right away. I just stopped and let my head slump down, as if I were that teenager who had just gotten caught. I heard Mom coming up behind me and with a resigned sigh, I turned to face her.

"Megan, why are you..." Mom stopped when she saw my face. "Honey, you're crying! What's wrong?"

"I..." I stopped, unsure of what I was going to say.

"And why are you dressed like that?" Mom asked, looking me up and down. "Well I..."

I had nothing. The events of the day had left me completely drained. I tried to push my exhausted mind to come up with yet another lie to my mother, but the well was empty. I started to try to say something about a date but what came out was a sob as my emotions finally overwhelmed me.

"Come here honey!"

Mom immediately came over, reached up and put her arms around me. Feeling foolish but unable to help myself, I put my head down on her shoulder and started crying, not just the tears that had been trickling on and off since I had left Mark, but full, gut-wrenching sobs. Mom didn't say a word, just held me and gently rubbed my back.

Even as I continued to let myself go, I could feel that old familiar comfort of my mother's embrace. In the midst of my despair, I remembered how many years I denied myself this embrace, denied my mother the chance to help her daughter.

My sobs increased as I pictured my brother alone in his office, with no one to be there for him. I knew by now Mark's rage was gone and that he was as upset as I was. I could feel my brother's loneliness, as if it were my own, because for years it had been.

When my sobs finally died down, to just the occasional embarrassing hiccup, Mom stepped back from me, and, taking my hand, led me over to the kitchen table."Sit down and talk to me"

I allowed myself to be led and after I sat down, Mom walked over to the sink. I heard the water, and when she came back, she had a small, wet towel in her hand. Without a word, Mom took my chin in her hand and started wiping off my face. I tried to pull away, but Mom just smiled and told me to stop fidgeting. I stopped moving and closed my eyes as Mom pressed the warm towel to them, gently dabbing at my ruined mascara. As I sat there, letting Mom wash my face like she did when I was a little girl, I felt myself beginning to calm down somewhat. As always, Mom had a way of making even the worst things seem a little better. When she was finished, I opened my eyes.

Smiling, Mom said, "Now there's my beautiful girl!"

I couldn't help but smile a little at that, which caused Mom's smile to widen. She turned and, after tossing the towel in the sink, went over to the fridge. Coming back to the table, Mom handed me a bottle of water and sat down across from me.

"Really, Megan, I don't know why you cover yourself in that Elvira make up. You're pale as it is, and it covers up how pretty you really are."

"Just part of the persona, I guess," I told her with a shrug. "Megan Decosta, the underground artist, wouldn't wear pink blush and a pony tail."

"Well, if you were at a showing, I could see that," Mom said, nodding. "But today?"

Mom was quiet for a minute as she waited for me to respond. Although I felt a little better my mind was still locked up and I had no idea what I was going to tell her.

"Megan, why are you so upset?" she asked. "And really, why the hell are you dressed like that?" She shook her head. "You didn't leave the house like that."

I laughed to myself as this really was becoming a teenage flashback. Leaving Mom's in a jeans and a t-shirt, only to go to Betty's and change into something trashy. Looking at Mom and still having nothing, I simply went with a version of the truth.

"I...I had a lunch date."

"Dressed like that?" Mom asked, pointing at my chest.

Looking down I saw that the top two buttons of my blouse were undone and the red corset plainly visible.

"You must have been expecting it to be a great first date!"

"No, I..." I sighed and let a little more truth come out. "It wasn't a first date, I... I've seen this person before."

"Before?"

"Yeah," I hesitated then, picturing my brother said, "I've known him for years, and whenever I come up here, if I'm not with someone, we get together."

"Oh," Mom said. "So is he a, what do they call it? A friend with benefits?"

Continuing with the half truths I answered.

"More like an old flame."

"Oh, I see." She nodded. "Trying to get over Laura?"

I looked at my mother, and for a moment felt a desperate urge to tell her. To simply blurt it out, that I thought I was in love with Mark. Tell her that he loved me and wanted us to be together. As I sat there I could feel the urge growing stronger, the desire to get twenty years worth of lies off of my chest, to ease that guilt, and to maybe even get some help on what the hell to do. Mom was looking at me calmly waiting for me to speak and the urge began to fade. In the end if there was to be no future for my brother and me, which is how it was looking at the moment, why would I want to do that? Go through all of the repercussions for nothing. Still, maybe my mother could help me.

"Mom, what would you do if you loved someone that you shouldn't?"

Mom looked at me for a moment before answering.

"Well what do you mean by shouldn't? Are they married?"

"Well no."

"Well hon, I'm confused," She began. "If they're not married, and considering you..."She paused, trying to find the right words. "Since you have no problem with either a man or a woman, I don't see why else you shouldn't love someone."

"I..." It was my turn to try to pick my words. "It's just complicated, Mom it's more like who it is, could cause some problems."

Mom leaned back in the chair and seemed to be thinking. I felt myself getting worried, wondering if in reality, I was all but telling her who it was. No, now I was just being nervous. Mom, nor anyone else, for that matter, would suspect that I was closer than I should be with my brother.

"Before I say anything, I am not sure I understand, I mean you just broke up with Laura not two weeks ago, and now you're asking me about..."

Mom trailed off, then giving me a slight smile, asked, "Honey, have you been in love with this person all along?"

"I..." I stopped, as I once again felt this conversation could end up being too revealing. But, then again, I was at least getting the chance to talk about it. "I think maybe..." I put my head down. "Yes."

"So I guess what I said about you seeming as if you were waiting for something was close to the mark after all," Mom said, nodding.

"Yeah, I guess so."It's not Tommy is it?" Mom asked.

"No, of course not!" I exclaimed. "Tommy's married!"

"Well, you said it's someone you're not supposed to be with," she said, spreading her arms out. "Plus, you said old flame. I mean, the two of you were engaged at one point."

"It's not Tommy, it's," I sighed. "Someone you don't know about."

Mom nodded and went on. "So does this person feel the same way?"

"I..." I swallowed hard as I told myself to end this now, but so badly needed to try to talk about it. "That's what we tried to talk about over lunch."

"I see that it didn't go well." Mom said. "So he doesn't feel..."

"Actually " I cut her off. "They do feel that way; I'm the one who..." I shrugged. "Same old me, I just can't seem to make it that easy." I looked at her. "I think I'm in love with him."

"Ahhh, so at least I know it's a him now."

"But there are so many buts" I told her, feeling myself getting worked up again. "It could cause problems, and mostly for him..."

"Does he care?" Mom asked.

"Well... no but..."

"Then why should you?"

I stopped. That answer made it sound so simple. In most situations, it would be the right one, but Mom had no idea who I was talking about.

"Megan have you told him you love him?"

"Sort of," I said softly. "That's how the fight started. I just can't...""But you do."

"Yes." I nodded as much to myself as to her. "I do but..."

"You say that word a lot" she laughed. "Funny how years ago you were so impulsive, now you play it so safe."

"I..."

I frowned. I did not see myself as a safe type of person. Then again, I had to admit that once more, Mom was right. Program had taught me to be careful, to think everything through, lest I put myself in a bad situation. I was safe, and my brother, who had spent his entire life planning and scheming six moves in advance, had thrown caution to the wind.

"Megan listen," Mom cut into my thoughts. "I don't have a lot of experience myself with this subject, "Mom leaned forward and gave me a small grin.

"But," she emphasized the word causing me to roll my eyes, "I've seen a lot over the years, and unrequited love is a tough thing."

"Well, it's not really unrequited," I pointed out. "I did kind of..."

"Megan, until you have point blank looked each other in the eye and said 'I love you' with no room for interpretation, then it is unrequited, understand?"

As I nodded, I heard my brother's voice in my head from Saturday night. "Megan, I love you, I love you so much." The best I had come up with today was 'Yes' and 'I was in love.

"The thing about it, Megan," Mom continued. "Is that if you never acknowledge that love, then it becomes unfair to a lot of people.""It's unfair to the person you truly love, as they will never know it, and it's unfair to people like Laura." As she continued, Mom was looking directly into my eyes. "They become casualties, Go-betweens, while you try to give your heart to someone other than who you truly want to give it to." She pointed at me.

"And of course, hon, it's unfair to you, as well. You'll spend your entire life never feeling whole and always wondering what could have been."

"B..." I caught myself. "What if it doesn't work, then what?"

"Then you move on At that point, you'll have gone after your heart's desire, found out it wasn't meant to be, and now the next time you meet someone like Laura, you will be open for it to work."

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