Wide Awake

"Of course I'm right," Doctor Butler said, his voice filled with unshakable certainty. "When you get turned on, it's very hard for you to think straight. All that sexual energy is just another distraction, Lita, and it's been distracting you for a long time now. You've been very horny since getting to prison, haven't you?"

Lita almost whimpered out her answer, but the pendant kept her focused and centered. "Yes," she said. "All the time." There was nowhere private in jail; even in the shower or the toilet, someone could walk in on you. Some of the girls didn't mind, or even liked being watched, but Lita could never get past it. She'd fingered herself a few times, under the covers after lights out, but it always felt furtive and unsatisfying. She'd resigned herself a long time ago to waiting, and she'd almost convinced herself that it had worked until now.

"And that's been distracting, hasn't it?" She could hear Doctor Butler's voice close to her ear now, like he was kneeling next to her. She almost opened her eyes to look, but then the pendant in her mind swung again and she decided it was easier to stay focused on that. "When you think back on all those fights you got into, you can remember all that tension and frustration looking for a place to escape. And you didn't know how to deal with it."

"Yes, Doctor," she replied. It felt like a natural response now.

She heard the zipper of her jumpsuit as it slowly dragged down the length of her body, tooth by tooth. "I'd like you to focus on that for a moment, Lita," Doctor Butler said. "Just take a moment, here in this safe space with me, and listen to your body. Really notice how much it's been distracting you. Feel your arousal--it's so strong, so powerful that you can't imagine how you've resisted it for so long."

"I..." Lita paused for a moment, the pendant wavering in her mind's eye, and then she felt it. Her cunt ached with a sudden, pleasant warmth, a sensual heat that instantly became the center of all her attention. "Ohhh," she gasped, her hips gently twitching as she felt the sensation building. "I feel it, yesss..."

"That's right, Lita," Doctor Butler said. He took her hand in his own and lifted it carefully, resting it on her crotch. "You need to release all that need, all that desire. It's the only way you'll be able to truly focus again. You need to cum, don't you?"

"Yes, Doctor," Lita moaned. She slid her hand into the waistband of her panties, feeling her fingers brush through her damp bush and caress her pubic mound with a desperate intensity. "I need to cum, I need to...oh!" She touched her pussy lips and came away slick with moisture. Then she touched again and she couldn't move her hand away if she tried.

"Very good, Lita," Doctor Butler said, stroking her temples as she masturbated. "You can see now just how powerful your sex drive is, can't you? How it's been controlling you for so long that you stopped even noticing."

"Yes, Doctor, oh yes oh yes oh yes," Lita babbled as she slid two fingers deep into her snatch and began to thrust them in and out. Her other hand was busy rubbing at her clit, sliding over the slick nub again and again and again until she thought she would almost cry from the sheer bliss of it all. She couldn't think about anything else but pleasuring herself. Even Doctor Butler's words simply floated through her mind without her really realizing what he was saying.

"And you can't let that happen, Lita," Doctor Butler said, gently stroking her cheek. "It's too important to be centered, to be calm, to be focused. You need to make good decisions when you leave here. Letting your arousal guide you doesn't do that."

"Yes, Doctor," she groaned, the words slurred almost into unrecognizability as she fingered herself. She could actually hear herself masturbate now, her fingers stirring her slippery cunt with frantic intensity. The orgasm building inside her was almost terrifyingly strong, like she needed to cling to something when it hit or it would wash her away completely.

"But your arousal is too powerful for you to control it, Lita," Doctor Butler said, his words sinking through the fog of desire in her mind right into her subconscious. "And if you can't control your arousal, and you can't let your arousal control you, what can you do?"

Lita whimpered, her hips bucking under her fingers. "I don't know," she gasped out. "Please I can't think, please, I please..." She didn't even know what she was asking for anymore. All that mattered now was satisfying the ache in her pussy.

"You need to let someone else make those decisions, Lita," Doctor Butler said. His hands weren't touching her face anymore. They were somewhere else, but Lita was too lost in pleasure to care or even notice. "You need someone else to tell you who to fuck, when to cum. That's the only way you'll be able to keep yourself focused, if you know that you can rely on someone to help you make the right decisions, to control your aroused and needy body for you. Doesn't that sound good?"

"Yes please yes please yes please," Lita chanted the words in time to her strokes, adding a third finger to stretch her pussy as far as she could. Her clit felt like a second heartbeat under her thumb, pounding with arousal as she rubbed it helplessly.

"Who would you like that person to be?" Doctor Butler asked, punctuating each word with a flick of her nipples.

"You!" Lita gasped out, unable to think of anyone else. Or anything else. "PLEASE!"

"Good girl," Doctor Butler said. "Now cum for me, Lita."

Lita's entire body tightened in a continual muscle spasm as the hardest orgasm of her life ripped through her. She felt her pussy juices gushing out under her fingers, soaking her panties and leaving her jumpsuit dripping as she came and came and came. Her cunt clamped down on her fingers like a vise, surging with pleasure over and over and over again as Lita screamed through clenched teeth. "That's right," Doctor Butler said, putting his arms around her as she felt the quakes of pleasure gradually subside into aftershocks. "That's a good girl. That's my good girl."

Afterward, he led her into a small bathroom just off of his office and helped her clean herself up and change. "I always keep a few spare jumpsuits," he said, unlocking her shackles so she could get undressed. "Therapy can be an intense experience for many, and you'd be surprised what can happen to clothing in the course of a session."

Lita just nodded, too relaxed to care. She felt like she was floating in a cloud of perfect serenity, completely centered on Doctor Butler's words and the drifting afterglow of pleasure in her pussy. It was such a relief to realize that she didn't have to worry about making all those frustrating decisions anymore--all she needed to do now was focus on Doctor Butler, and take her cues from him. It felt so easy to let go and trust him completely.

The guard came back for her, and was surprised to see Lita greet her with an easy smile. "Same time next week?" she asked Doctor Butler.

"Same time next week," he said.

*****

Lita walked into the office, reveling in each long stride she took across the room. "Check it out!" she said excitedly, waving her hands over her head. "I got no bling to hold me down, huh, doc?"

"Very nice," he said as the guard closed the door behind her. "With your parole hearing tomorrow, I'd say that's definitely a good sign." He sat down in the chair at the foot of the couch. "How are you feeling about that, by the way?"

Lita's smile vanished and she let out a heavy sigh. "Pretty damn freaked," she said as she sat down on the couch. "I keep trying to remember what you told me and stay centered, but..."

Doctor Butler nodded. "I'm assuming you're still not interested in using hypnosis to calm down?"

Lita shook her head. "I trust you, you know that, but I don't think I'll ever be okay with giving someone control over my mind like that. Not even you, doc. No offense."

"None taken," he replied, chuckling ruefully. "Wide awake, Lita." She slumped back onto the couch in a rush of instant relaxation, her eyes slamming shut and her muscles going instantly limp. "Very good, Lita. It always feels good to be wide awake for me, doesn't it?"

"Yes, Doctor," she said softly, already seeing the pendant began to swing back and forth in her mind. "I feel deeply peaceful and attentive when I am wide awake for you."

"That's just wonderful, Lita," he replied. She heard the rustle of clothing from the chair. "Now, let's talk about the parole hearing tomorrow. You said you were nervous?"

"Yes, Doctor." She got another surge of anxiety all over again as she spoke, but she could already feel it disappearing into the pendant's calming dance. "It's been very difficult staying calm and centered the last few days. I thought about asking to see you again, but I wasn't sure you would be available."

"Let's dispel those worries right now," Doctor Butler said firmly. "You can always reach out to me whenever you're having difficulty focusing, whether your parole hearing is successful or not. It's very important that you come to me any time you feel less than centered, Lita. Do you understand that? Any time you have difficulty staying focused on my suggestions, you will return to me and I will help you find this same peace and contentment you feel right now."

"Yes, Doctor," Lita murmured, her tension melting away completely into Doctor Butler's words and the pendant's endless, dazzling sway. "I will return to you whenever I need to feel centered."

"Good girl," Doctor Butler said. "You're feeling very centered right now, aren't you? Your mind is relaxed and fully able to concentrate on my words, knowing that my suggestions always feel so wonderful." Lita sighed contentedly in response.

"I'd like you to open your eyes now," Doctor Butler continued. "That's right, just open them easily and effortlessly, staying right here in that state of perfect peace and relaxation, still concentrating on my words." Lita's eyes fluttered open reluctantly, still half-focused on the pendant swinging in her imagination.

She saw Doctor Butler sitting in his chair, completely nude but looking as composed as ever. His clothing had been neatly folded and set on the desk, and he was gently caressing his cock as he stared at her. "Very good, Lita," he said, his voice thick with arousal. "Now, do you remember what we discussed last week?"

"Yes, Doctor," Lita replied, her eyes locking onto Doctor Butler's penis just as easily as they had focused on the pendant. "I remember. I learned that my arousal controls me, and I decided to trust you to control my arousal."

"That's right, Lita," he said. His cock visibly twitched in his hand as he spoke. "Your arousal controls you, and I control your arousal. That's exactly right. When I tell you to feel deep sexual desire, Lita, what happens?"

Lita sighed as a slow, lazy wave of sexual heat rolled over her. "I become deeply aroused," she moaned out, squirming slightly as she lay on the couch. She wanted to touch herself like last week, but she understood now that her feelings sometimes led her to make bad decisions. She knew that she needed to wait for Doctor Butler to tell her how to release her pent-up need.

"You're doing so well, Lita," Doctor Butler responded. "Stand up for me and take off your clothing."

"Yes, Doctor." Lita stood up, her body feeling almost as if it floated up off of the couch. She pulled the zipper down on her jumpsuit and shrugged out of it easily, then pulled her panties down and stepped out of them as well. Finally she unhooked her bra and let it fall onto the pile of garments.

"Excellent." He gestured to her. "Now, come to me." Lita stepped over to the end of the couch without really thinking about it--she was in the control of her arousal now, and her arousal was in Doctor Butler's control. It was only natural that her body would move at his command.

"Good girl," he said. "I'd like you to get down on your knees now."

Lita sank into a kneeling position, her gaze now entirely centered on Doctor Butler's throbbing cock. This close, she could see each tiny pulse of his arousal as he idly stroked his erection for her. He reached out with his other hand, knotting his fingers into Lita's long dark hair, and she knew exactly what he wanted without being told. She leaned in and slowly, sensuously slid her lips over the head of his penis.

"That's right," he gasped, his voice finally losing some of its deliberate veneer of calm. "You're following my suggestions so perfectly, Lita, and that feels so...so wonderful. You feel perfectly centered right now, focused on pleasing me...you, oh, you love this so much, you're so relaxed now..."

Lita felt herself relaxing completely, allowing his cock to slide all the way down into her throat as she took his full length into her mouth. It was so easy to relax like this, so easy to let her arousal control her and to let him control her arousal. She felt perfectly at ease like this, like she could suck him off for hours. She tried to say, "Yes, Doctor," but it just came out as a hum around his shaft in her mouth. The way he pressed her down further against his crotch told her that even that pleased him, though.

She could taste his pre-cum on her tongue, but he didn't shoot his load into her mouth like she thought he would. Instead, he lifted her back off and guided her into a standing position. "And back down," he said, as he maneuvered her into straddling his hips. She sank onto his cock with a slow, whimpering sigh, taking his full length in a single thrust.

"So good," he moaned, guiding her up and down, again and again. "Feels so good, fucking me, so good, obeying me, so fucking good when I control your arousal and your body and all your thoughts focus on pleasing me, so fucking good..."

Lita barely even processed his words. Her whole mind was centered on matching the rhythm of his thrusts, pounding his cock inside of her as her tits bounced up and down in time to their sex. She heard herself moaning, but she couldn't stop. She couldn't control herself at all anymore. She didn't want to, not when it felt so good to let Doctor Butler control her instead.

"Oh, fuck, oh fuck, fuck yes, cumming cumming cum for me cum for me good girl good girl good gnnnh!" Doctor Butler's hips strained upwards in a long, sustained spasm of orgasmic bliss, and Lita ground down to meet him as her clit throbbed in ecstasy right along with him. She let out one last, strangled gasp and slumped down on top of him, shuddering as the echoes of her pleasure washed over her and through her.

It felt like they lay together for only a few minutes, with Doctor Butler whispering quietly in her ear as she cuddled up to his warm, soft skin, but Lita knew that she lost track of time easily when she was focused on obedience. That was perfectly normal--time was just another distraction that she ignored when she was wide awake like this. Luckily, Doctor Butler reminded her that they needed to get dressed again before the guard showed up. He was always helping her avoid bad decisions like that.

"See you at the hearing tomorrow," Doctor Butler said, just before she left.

Lita felt another twinge of panic at the thought, but the pendant in her mind smoothed it all away.

*****

Lita sat behind the table, her hands folded in front of her, her face composed into an expression of sincere penitence. She looked up at the parole board member as she read out the board's decision, not betraying a hint of worry.

"...and so, based on the recommendation of Doctor Henry Butler, it is the decision of this parole board that you be granted parole." Lita's face broke out into a wide smile, but it faded again when the woman continued. "However, given your age at time of sentencing and disciplinary history in this facility, we believe that it would be best to remand you to a rehabilitative program--a halfway house--rather than simply releasing you to fend for yourself without a chance to acclimatize to life outside of prison."

Lita nodded soberly, as if she expected exactly this news. "I understand," she said. She looked each board member in the eye and said, "Thank you for giving me this chance."

The woman banged her gavel. "Then it is so ordered. You will be remanded into the custody of the Butler Home, with your eventual release contingent on successful completion of a rehabilitation program to the standards of chief of staff Doctor Henry Butler. I hope that you do not disappoint Doctor Butler, young lady. It is only due to his personal belief in your ability to become a productive member of society once more that we have granted you this parole."

Lita looked over to where Doctor Butler sat, beaming with approval. "I will do everything I can to make him proud of me," she said. "I promise." A few members of the parole board looked surprised--they'd probably expected some sort of outburst from her about the lecture the woman had tacked on to the verdict, something they could use to justify sending her back into her cell. But Lita was too centered for that. She saw only the pendant in her mind's eye, focused only on the thought of leaving the facility and going to the new home Doctor Butler had told him about. She kept her thoughts on sucking his cock, just the way he'd instructed, to prevent her arousal from interfering with her concentration.

Lita's eyes were open, but inside, she was wide awake.

THE END