Mixed Emotions

I was lost for words. I wasn't about to start up another argument with Candy. I just let it go for now. I did have to wonder if she knew something I didn't. Did Charly really like me that much?

As time went on we did our best to communicate. Candy had a few good days but most was her blaming me for her being pregnant. She was scared and so was I; we weren't ready for parenthood but here we were.

I got a call at work and it was Candy. She had to go to the hospital, the babies were coming. I left as soon as I could and met her there. I called her parents and mine; they arrived shortly after I got there.

Candy was cussing up a storm. Most of her words were aimed at me. "You son of a bitch, you better never touch me again."

"You can take that fucking dick of yours and stick it up your ass."

"God it hurts! I wish it was you pushing these babies out of your cock so you know what it feels like." She kept going on and on. Thank God our parents didn't hear her.

I was in the room for the delivery. She hardly said a nice word to me. I knew she was in pain but there was nothing I could do. I offered to hold her hand but she wanted no part of me. Finally she screamed out and I saw the head of one of the babies. It was a boy. It sure looked messed up. My stomach was becoming queasy.

The nurse looked at me and saw the look on my face. "Don't worry, they all look that way till we clean them up." She gave me a very welcomed smile.

It was a few minutes later that the second one arrived. It looked pretty much like the first one except she was a girl. Candy lay there looking like she just got out of a shower. Two nurses cleaned up the babies and another helped Candy clean up some. I stepped out and told our parents that they were now grandparents.

"You have a grandson and a granddaughter. The doctor said they seemed in perfect health." I was happy the ordeal was over with.

We all waited in the waiting room till we got the ok to see Candy and the babies. She still wasn't talking to me. She wasn't saying much of anything to anyone.

They brought the babies in and of course everyone seemed really happy except Candy. I knew she went through a lot but I thought she would be more excited. The grandparents sure were.

We named them Larry and Sherry. They sure were cute babies even though they were mine. I was really happy; I was now a dad. A very proud one.

In the days that followed we took our babies home. Their room was all ready for them. Candy seemed a little better toward them now. I tried to be as helpful as possible. Candy didn't want to breast feed, so our babies were on formula. I promised to help as much as I could.

Candy had taken a two-month maternity leave. When I got home from work she would nag at me and tell me it was my turn to watch the babies, she had to do it all day. I really didn't mind because I really loved being a dad. I was even able to change diapers right from the start.

Each day I was excited to get home and play father to my twins. Candy did what most mothers do but she never had a fire in her belly toward the kids. I figured it was just her emotions were overwhelmed. I did my best to comfort her.

She joined an exercise club to help get her body back. Now I knew what the problem was. She was afraid she had lost her beautiful body. She went to exercise class for an hour each evening after I got home from work. In no time at all she looked great and I told her so.

It was two months before she would have sex with me. She did get on birth control. She didn't want any more kids. We needed a plan for after she went back to work. My mom suggested she could watch the kids while I worked. She was crazy about the twins.

Candy would drop them off in the morning before leaving for work and I would pick them up unless I had to work overtime. It worked out pretty good. Sometimes Mom would even have dinner ready and I would eat there. Candy hardly ever made dinner. I would take a plate of food home for her.

One day while I was at Mom's Charly stopped in. God, it was so good to see her. I gave her a hug and asked her if she wanted to see the twins.

"Jeff, I see the twins most everyday. I stop in after school and sometimes help your mom feed them. I'm not sure what word to use but they are adorable and precious." After Mom walked out of the room Charly said, "Too bad their mother is a fucking bitch. They deserve so much better."

"Charly, that's my wife you're talking about."

"I know, thank God they have a father as nice as you." She gave me a hug and went home.

Mom came back in the room but kept quiet about Charly. We talked about the kids before I took them home.

Chapter 2

It's been about nine months since the birth of the twins. The kids are more fun than ever. I lay on the floor and they crawl all over me. Candy seems a lot better now as I watch her with the kids. I know she has a busy schedule, working, going to exercise twice a week now and being a mother when she's home.

Mine isn't any easier. I pick them up at Mom's, make sure their fed and play with them till their mom shows up. It's what being a parent is all about. At least twice a week we take them to see Candy's parents. They love the kids also. How could they not.

A couple of times Charly's parents were over visiting Candy's parents. After all the two men are brothers. Charly's dad, Ben, is Candy's uncle. His wife is Betty. I've known them my whole life. They were like second parents to me.

Candy's parents are Bob and Alice Cook. They didn't seem to like me as much as Ben and Betty does but I did get their daughter pregnant.

Our sex life is ok but nothing to write home about. I expected we would be going at it most every day for at least a couple of years. I'm lucky if we do it twice a week. It's good when we do it but I always have to be the instigator. I have to eat her pussy just about every time which I don't mind but she doesn't give me oral sex unless she's drunk too much.

We don't go out very often, maybe once every couple of weeks. It's those days I usually get laid. Candy likes to drink but I'm usually the one driving so I stick with pop. I'm just trying to be a responsible driver and dad.

We've gone out dancing with a couple of her friends from work. I guess I don't like the way she flirts but not quite sure what to do about it. I have told her she was flirting a little too much and she did back down some.

Lately I've been getting calls from her that she has to work over an hour or so. After about the third time, it happened about twice a week. It made me wonder so on the way home I drove by her insurance offices and saw the light on inside and her car parked there. I went ahead and went home.

I did ask her about the sudden overtime and she said they were revamping the computer system and it was to busy during regular hours. I honestly didn't buy it. Why was it always her working over? I went by three different times and it was only her car and one other. Always the same car.

I had to wonder if she was cheating on me. After all she was a good-looking women and probably alone with another man. She had a jealous streak about me and that made me wonder if she might have taken on a lover.

One day while I was at Mom's to pick up the kids she told me she had to run to the store. While she was gone Charly happened to come over. I've never said anything to Candy but Charly comes over when I'm there pretty often. We just talk about old times and about the kids. She is getting ready to start her second year of college toward her nursing degree. She was going the whole year.

She told me she was studying DNA and was wondering if she could take mine. "Charly, I know what you're doing, the kids are mine, believe me. Go ahead take our DNA and knock yourself out."

"Jeff I love Larry and Sherry. It's their mother I don't trust and you shouldn't either. For the record I do hope they are your kids. I spend more time with them then their mother does."

"Charly, why such a distrust of Candy? She's your cousin."

"Look, she was a wild child when she was younger. I remembered how she was when we went and visited them. I don't think she's changed that much. The reason she went out with you was because she knew I loved you and planned on stealing you from me. She succeeded."

"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked.

"When? Right after you fucked her? No thank you! You made your bed and now have to sleep in it, but it doesn't mean I have to stop caring for you. I have to go home now."

I was shocked to hear that but later when Mom came home she told me that after school Charly always came over to visit. She would take breaks from doing her homework and help Mom with the kids. They were quite the handful.

Damn! My emotions were all mixed up. I was married now and had a family. I had to do whatever it takes to make it work. I tried to help Candy even more. Nothing seemed to improve all that much. Still had sex once or twice a week. Usually after we went out. I was at somewhat at a loss till I heard a knock at the door. I answered it and it was Charly.

"Charly, what are you doing here. If Candy catches you here she'll go berserk. Much as I hate to I have to ask you to leave."

"She won't be here that soon. I bet you got a call she's working over."

"How do you know that?" I asked.

"I know I shouldn't get involved but I'm worried about you and the kids. I heard at College on Tuesday that a married woman where Candy works is having an affair with a married man. One of the girls at college is a real gossip. She told me and a couple of other girls where she worked. It was part-time at the same agency as Candy.

"She told us that the woman who she wouldn't name stays late on Tuesday and Thursday. So I drove by on Tuesday and there was Candy's car in the parking lot next to one other car. Today is Thursday and I drove by and there it was again."

"Charly, Candy has always called me when she works over. She's never more than an hour late. That doesn't mean she's having an affair. Do you have any kind of proof like pictures that she is being unfaithful to me?"

"No, I don't. I just thought I would tell you what I heard and saw. I'm not trying to be mean or break-up your marriage. I'm sorry, it was stupid for me to even come here. I feel so stupid. It's just that we always watched out for each other and I hate seeing you get hurt. Please, just forget I was here, I was wrong to come here." Again she left me standing there wondering what the hell was going on.

Candy came home and said she needed a shower. She didn't even take the time to kiss me or say hi to the kids. I didn't tell her that Charly stopped by, it would have just been an argument. Candy did say she had something to talk to me about.

We did talk the next evening. The third week of August a number of people in her office would be taking a vacation and going to Atlantic City for four days. The company was having a conference and would be paying for the price of the rooms for the employees plus they would be eating most meals free. She said she was planning on going.

"What about our family? We can't take two little kids to Atlantic City. Besides I can't get off work. I took my vacation when the kids were born."

"You don't have to go. Julie, one of the girls at the office said she would share a room with me. We are going to drive there so we can save some money. My boss is expecting me to go. He said it will help me in the future. I can start studying to become an insurance agent."

"What if I say no? I want you to stay here with me and the kids. They don't get to see you that much. They've been calling my mother mommy."

"No matter what I want, you always are against it. Well, this is my job and I'm going. If you can't give me a little space, then fuck you. This is my future I'm talking about. You can have your precious Charly watch your kids."

"What does Charly have to do with this? I hardly ever see her."

"I know she visits your mom all the time. Do I look like I have 'stupid' written on my forehead? I know you still care for her. I bet you've been fucking her too"

"I have never done anything wrong with Charly. You're just using her as an excuse to go to Atlantic City. I heard a rumor that someone in your office is having an affair; that wouldn't be you by any chance? If you choose to go to Atlantic City we may not stay married when you get back."

"You're not going anywhere. I'll get your precious kids and you will have a hard time seeing them when I tell the courts about Charly, your girlfriend. As far as me having an affair, I wish I were."

It was two weeks away and we argued about it every day till she had her bags packed and was ready to go. She didn't work any overtime for the following two weeks. I had a feeling she was a bit hesitant about me finding out something.

I was lost on what to do. I threatened divorce and she didn't bat an eye. I talked to an old friend at work and he suggested I get a private investigator. He mentioned a good friend of his who handled his divorce. He even accepted credit cards. I talked to a Joe Miller and he listened to my story. I told him I didn't have any proof but I had suspicions my wife was having an affair.

I told him about Atlantic City and gave him a list of the employees that I knew were going. Charly found out who was going from her gossip friend that worked at the agency. I gave Joe a credit card and he charged me five hundred dollars to look into my situation.

He called me a couple of days later and said the manager of the agency was taking his wife. Two other agents were also taking their wives too. He mentioned that Bill Akers, one of the agents, was going solo even though he was married. The only other two people going solo were my wife and her divorced friend Julie.

Joe laughed when he saw Julie's name. He told me he followed her husband and found him cheating on Julie. It lead to their divorce a couple of years back. He did mention he dated her a couple of times after that.

He told me he would accept my case but it would cost me a thousand dollars a day plus some expenses. We figured it would be around five-thousand dollars. I explained to him that I needed proof if she was cheating on me.

I didn't have that kind of money and Joe said if I wanted to put twenty-five hundred down on a credit card, he would charge the balance later. He promised me that if Candy cheated on me he would get me the proof I needed. He would keep me updated daily by e-mail.

I went home wondering if I was doing the right thing. I knew I had to get past these suspicions. If she isn't having an affair I would do my best to make this marriage work. On the other hand, if she was cheating on me, I would start divorce proceedings.

I picked up my kids at Mom's and went home. Candy had left work early and came home and packed her bags for her trip. She kissed the kids and told me, "I'll see you in four days," she said, as she laughed at me.

I really didn't want to be home alone. I took the kids and went and visited one of my friends. They had kids and we enjoyed the evening together. They asked about Candy and I told them she had a mandatory convention to go to and would be gone four days. I did mention I couldn't get off of work since I had used up my vacation.

The next day I stayed at Mom's for dinner. Charly showed up and at first I felt a bit awkward. She knew Candy had gone to Atlantic City. After dinner we all sat around and watched TV. I felt good just having Charly near. Before we knew it we were joking and playing with the kids.

"Charly, what ever happened to the DNA tests you took of me and the twins?"

She became more solemn. I was a bit worried and then she said, "You were right. You are their biological father. I'm sorry I doubted you. I really am happy for you, they're wonderful kids."

Again I could see she was sorry she had interfered. There is no way I could stay mad at her. Deep down I guess I always knew we should have been together but now it was just too late.

I went home that evening, put the kids to bed and went to my computer. I had received some information from Joe.

He told me that he saw Candy, Julie and Bill Akers sharing a table. He said he walked over to Julie and she recognized him. He told her he was there for a few days for a vacation. Julie introduced him to Candy and Bill as an old friend.

He went on to tell me they invited him to sit with them at their table. He pretended to be interested in Julie and asked her to dance. Bill and Candy got up to dance also. He sent me a couple of snapshots from his phone but they didn't prove anything other than they were dancing close.

He explained his plan to me that he was going to date Julie and would have an inside track on what went on. When they all went to their meeting the next day he was going to plant a mini camera in their rooms. He figured if anything went on that's where it would take place.

Friday after work I went home before going to Mom's to pick up the twins. I wanted to check the computer. Joe had a live feed set up in their bedroom. He told me that I wouldn't be able to use it in court since it was taken illegally but I could use whatever he taped as leverage.

He also put an audio bug under one of the beds. He would send me both audio and video files if anything was there to share. I figured it would be the next morning before I would know any more.

I picked up the kids and went next door to visit Ben and Betty Cook. It's been awhile since I have seen them. They played with the kids, who were their grandniece and grandnephew. We talked for a while but they didn't say much about Candy other than we mentioned her trip.

Charly came home and was surprised to see us at their house. Mrs. Cook asked us to stay for dinner. She made macaroni and cheese for the twins. We stayed rather late, I wasn't in a hurry to get home. This felt more like a home to me.

I got up early the next morning and checked the computer before the kids woke up. My worst thoughts were realized. Joe told me after the meeting that he met up with Julie, Candy and Bill and they went out for dinner and drinks.

When it was time to go to their room he asked Julie to his room for a nightcap. Bill went to his room and Candy to hers. He sent a video of Candy talking to Bill on the phone. She told him it was safe to come back that Julie had called and said she was staying the night with Joe.

When Bill got to the room, Candy put her arms around him and began kissing him. I could hear them talking. "God, I missed being with you. We had to make sure we were safe to be together. I need you to make love to me," said Candy.

They stripped and began having sex. The first thing she did was take him orally. All I could do was shake my head; she had to be really drunk to give me oral sex. I watched him fuck her twice before I just shut off the computer. I had seen enough for now. I had two little kids to take care of.

I called a lawyer friend and told him I needed to know my rights when I asked for a divorce. I told him I have tapes and pictures of her with her lover. Even though they might not be admissible, I wanted custody of my kids. We talked for a long time and I let him know I would be back the following week, probably to file for a divorce.

I didn't want to be alone. I needed someone to talk to and I wanted it to be Charly. The problem was I didn't want her to get drawn in on the divorce. Candy already said she would involve Charly if I tried divorcing her.

I decided to call Candy at the hotel. She answered her phone and sounded like she had been drinking.

"Candy, you haven't called so I thought I would call you. How are you doing?"

"I'm fine, meetings all day and Julie and I had dinner together. I'm getting ready for bed now. It's been pretty boring over all. I have to take a shower, I'll see you in a couple of days. Bye."